so

i'm really upset about the exam because i studied hard for it, it's my favourite subject, i know i know my stuff, i read books associated with the subject outside the reading list for fun, and in retrospect, the questions weren't really that difficult as it allowed much room for creative answers. i just don't know why i couldn't organize my thoughts then. everything came out as this massive jumble.. there was no clarity in my head, nor in my answers. and i know that if i were to take the exam right now, in this room, at this point in time, i could have easily figured out the most structured way to answer the questions. and so, i'm really pissed.. at geertz, durkheim, bourdieu, malinowski, weber and marx, but most of all, at myself.

i need.. a miracle.