i used to operate on this impression that i was waiting for my real life to begin.. know what i mean? like for the past years (or almost as long as i could remember), it always seemed like i was constantly dreaming of another life to start that'll be different from the life i was presently living.
i was talking to a friend today and suddenly i had this realization that this is it. my life is for real right now. this is my real life.. heheh... all that is in my hand right now is for real: church, friends, connect, warden, school.. everything. i'm no longer dreaming of another life. i'm happy here.. at this juncture where it seems like my real life is meeting my dreams.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Monday, January 29, 2007
georgie porgie
georgie porgie pudding and pie
kissed the girls and made them cry
when the boys came out to play
georgie porgie went away.
***
and everything about you still makes me smile. :)
kissed the girls and made them cry
when the boys came out to play
georgie porgie went away.
***
and everything about you still makes me smile. :)
Friday, January 26, 2007
new song in my head
new from church.. it's gonna feature in the new album i think? stay tuned!
it's a pity that lyrics on blogs alone can't convey the heart and soul of songs the way songs are supposed to be conveyed. heheh.. but it is mostly to remind me of the songs attached to certain seasons of my life, that I am writing the lyrics here. :)
**
let now the weak
say, I have strength
By the spirit of god
that raised Christ from the dead
let now the poor
stand and confess
"Oh my portion is Him
and i'm more than blessed"
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
a fire consuming all
for your son's
holy name
and with the heavens we declare
you are our king
*We love you lord
we worship you
You are our God
You alone are good
Let now your church shine as the bride
that you saw in your heart
as you offer up your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed
Those adopted as your own
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
a fire consuming all
for your son's
holy name
and with the heavens we declare
you are our king
*We love you lord
we worship you
You are our God
You alone are good
You asked your son
to carry this:
the heavy cross
our weight of sin
I love you lord
I worship you
hope which was lost
now stands renewed
I give my life
to honour this:
The love of Christ
Our Savior King
it's a pity that lyrics on blogs alone can't convey the heart and soul of songs the way songs are supposed to be conveyed. heheh.. but it is mostly to remind me of the songs attached to certain seasons of my life, that I am writing the lyrics here. :)
**
let now the weak
say, I have strength
By the spirit of god
that raised Christ from the dead
let now the poor
stand and confess
"Oh my portion is Him
and i'm more than blessed"
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
a fire consuming all
for your son's
holy name
and with the heavens we declare
you are our king
*We love you lord
we worship you
You are our God
You alone are good
Let now your church shine as the bride
that you saw in your heart
as you offer up your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed
Those adopted as your own
Let now our hearts burn with a flame
a fire consuming all
for your son's
holy name
and with the heavens we declare
you are our king
*We love you lord
we worship you
You are our God
You alone are good
You asked your son
to carry this:
the heavy cross
our weight of sin
I love you lord
I worship you
hope which was lost
now stands renewed
I give my life
to honour this:
The love of Christ
Our Savior King
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Rent!
525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure,
measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you
measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love?
Measure in love. Seasons of love.
525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan. 525,600 minutes -
how can you measure
the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
or the way that she died.
It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends
let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love! Remember the love! Remember
the love! Measure in love. Seasons of love!
"Seasons of love" from Rent (2005)
525,600 minutes - how do you measure,
measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you
measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love?
Measure in love. Seasons of love.
525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan. 525,600 minutes -
how can you measure
the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned,
or the way that she died.
It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends
let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love! Remember the love! Remember
the love! Measure in love. Seasons of love!
"Seasons of love" from Rent (2005)
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
some great news
i got my passport back from home office.
my visa's extended till april 2011.
it was written as 1 APR/AVR 11 and my first reaction was.. oh no.. april the 11th? that's it?
I was looking for the "O8" number.
couldn't find it. almost panicked. and then realized that OH MY GOD IT'S APRIL 2011!!! wooohooo...
hooohhooowooohooo.. heheehhe.. like for real.
yeah.
so..
it's all good. :)
my visa's extended till april 2011.
it was written as 1 APR/AVR 11 and my first reaction was.. oh no.. april the 11th? that's it?
I was looking for the "O8" number.
couldn't find it. almost panicked. and then realized that OH MY GOD IT'S APRIL 2011!!! wooohooo...
hooohhooowooohooo.. heheehhe.. like for real.
yeah.
so..
it's all good. :)
a higher calling
"Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents.
Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love.
Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant.
He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us.
Love like that.
"Husbands, go all out in your love for your wives, exactly as Christ did for the church—a love marked by giving, not getting.
Christ's love makes the church whole.
His words evoke her beauty
Everything he does and says is designed to bring the best out of her, dressing her in dazzling white silk, radiant with holiness."
Ephesians 5: 1-2; 25-28
(disclaimer: i think the last bit is not reserved to husbands only.. the model of christ-love is for all.. guys just have no excuse now. heheh)
i love how the bible paradoxically sets us a standard of living that is super-high yet incredibly simple and basic at the same time: just love. "extravagant.. giving everything of himself to us..love like that." yet how easily and often we fall short and give up on people.
i'm committed to being your friend. (**except when im busy, in a bad mood, having anxiety attacks, pissed off at the world, having pms, post-teen angst, you get the idea.. then i think it's time for you to be my friend and show some love my way.)
:)
Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love.
Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant.
He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us.
Love like that.
"Husbands, go all out in your love for your wives, exactly as Christ did for the church—a love marked by giving, not getting.
Christ's love makes the church whole.
His words evoke her beauty
Everything he does and says is designed to bring the best out of her, dressing her in dazzling white silk, radiant with holiness."
Ephesians 5: 1-2; 25-28
(disclaimer: i think the last bit is not reserved to husbands only.. the model of christ-love is for all.. guys just have no excuse now. heheh)
i love how the bible paradoxically sets us a standard of living that is super-high yet incredibly simple and basic at the same time: just love. "extravagant.. giving everything of himself to us..love like that." yet how easily and often we fall short and give up on people.
i'm committed to being your friend. (**except when im busy, in a bad mood, having anxiety attacks, pissed off at the world, having pms, post-teen angst, you get the idea.. then i think it's time for you to be my friend and show some love my way.)
:)
Monday, January 22, 2007
Day of days
1. I met with my supervisor and she was happy with my progress. (This is a big deal. She hasn't been happy with my progress for a long time. I had not shown progress in a long time. My last indication of progress was finishing my Master's reasonably well).
2. I presented my research proposal to my cohort and they liked it. The questions weren't too un-unswerable. I withstood a whole solid hour-long session of question and answer. Phew.
3. I came up with a good 10-sentence critique of D's research. (This is a big deal. One of my self-imposed challenges this year is to speak up more in class).
4. I had a free dinner.
5. I am tired. And relieved. And just feel like celebrating coz last week I was quite sure I was gonna get kicked out of school this week. Like mega-relieved.
6. It's a new day tomorrow. New in every sense of the word.
7. London's freezing overnight. Just three days ago, you could happily walk out with a summer jacket. Today, I had four layers (three thick, one thin) and I felt like I could do with another layer. And I've heard rumours of snow for tomorrow.
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:21-23
2. I presented my research proposal to my cohort and they liked it. The questions weren't too un-unswerable. I withstood a whole solid hour-long session of question and answer. Phew.
3. I came up with a good 10-sentence critique of D's research. (This is a big deal. One of my self-imposed challenges this year is to speak up more in class).
4. I had a free dinner.
5. I am tired. And relieved. And just feel like celebrating coz last week I was quite sure I was gonna get kicked out of school this week. Like mega-relieved.
6. It's a new day tomorrow. New in every sense of the word.
7. London's freezing overnight. Just three days ago, you could happily walk out with a summer jacket. Today, I had four layers (three thick, one thin) and I felt like I could do with another layer. And I've heard rumours of snow for tomorrow.
Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:21-23
Thursday, January 18, 2007
echoes
"I realize that I don't have what it takes. I can will it, but I can't do it. I decide to do good, but I don't really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. My decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time." Romans 7:18-20
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
i love
how the days are getting longer.
feeling just slighty bitty ill. like tired. like physically tired.
and like.. like..
feeling just slighty bitty ill. like tired. like physically tired.
and like.. like..
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
ggrrr
not smiling anymore.
i stupidly left my library card home
and it's annoying me so.
of course i shouldn't let it get to me..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ok. gggrrr.. sharks.
breathe.
i found my student oyster.
i wanna sleep.
time to go home.
i stupidly left my library card home
and it's annoying me so.
of course i shouldn't let it get to me..
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ok. gggrrr.. sharks.
breathe.
i found my student oyster.
i wanna sleep.
time to go home.
Monday, January 08, 2007
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
arghh
my right eye hurts. think been reading with lousy light too long. have to close one eye to ease the ache. feeling like a one-eyed-jack right now..
***
on a sudden-fit-of-inspiration note..
Ephesians 1: 11-12: It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.
so yeah..
:)
***
on a sudden-fit-of-inspiration note..
Ephesians 1: 11-12: It's in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.
so yeah..
:)